Quarterly Check Up?

I've avoided saying anything about my New Year's resolutions because I've pretty much concluded that I suck at resolutions.  Well, suck is kind of a harsh way to put it. I've made some positive changes, but I haven't accomplished everything. You be the judge.

1. Take better care of myself -

• Nick and I joined a gym and have been going for three weeks now. We're going three times per week so that's nine more days of exercise so far than in 2010.
• We're doing well with watching what we eat. I know I'm not really the cooking type, but I've busted out some healthy recipes lately including quinoa burgers. (I'll have to write more about my love for quinoa later...) While we have our cheat days, we're in a much better healthy eating routine than we've been in in a long time. 

Here's the downside:

• Nail polish rarely makes it on to my nails.
• I haven't had a haircut since December.
• I still don't wear makeup to work (it's sporadic at best).
• I regularly wear my college pants to work. When I say "college pants" what I mean is my H&M pants from oh... about three years ago? They're these cotton pants that are oh-so-comfortable. One pair is black, one pair is blue and they're both completely faded. I know it's time to retire them, but I'm having a hard time letting them go.  Here they are in all their wrinkled glory (PS: I do iron them before I wear them.) 

2. Stop living for the future -

When you're trying to conceive, inevitably, you're living for the future. And you're living for the future in many ways, but one of the most obvious is that your months are separated into phases, and you're constantly looking towards the next phase. You're either in the trying phase, the waiting phase, or the disappointed phase (which can, of course, be replaced by the ohmygod I'm pregnant phase and then you start living for the future in new ways). I know when I find out I'm not pregnant I start looking to the next month. So, in that sense, I am concentrating on, or living for, the future.

What I'm describing here, though, isn't really what my resolution is about. I'm more concerned with allowing myself to live in the moment.  I found myself wasting Sundays being miserable because I knew that I had to go to work the next day.  I found myself facebooking instead of truly listening to whomever I was on the phone with. I found myself thinking of all the things I had to do when I got home from my parent's house instead of savoring the time I was spending with them.

I don't know that the capacity to live in the moment comes naturally to me.  That's not to say that I am not much improved from 2010. I am usually hyper-aware of when I'm not living in the moment. When I catch myself not being in the present when I should be, I tell myself, "Sara, you're being stupid. Stop it." And so I do. That's a big step for me; I think I'm making good progress on this one.     

3. Take more photos -

I'm not making many opportunities to go out and take photos. I envisioned that I would take walks with my trusty little camera while snapping happily away.  That has not been the case.  This whole weekend was even filled with photo opportunities, but I didn't take a single picture. Ugh. 

I did make somewhat of an effort when we went to Giants' Opening Night. Here's a sweet photo of the Bay Bridge with some sort of smudge. All in all, I'm a complete photo failure, but as I have been saying, I'll keep trying...